sick

Well, I've had the flu or something flu-like since Thursday. It's been really hard staying positive when I feel so bad and am confined to the apartment. I've taken up journaling, with the blogiing so I can still write down personal stuggles, but ones that are too personal to post. I was reading a BPD blog the other day. THey were talking about the DBT skill-act the oppostie. It really got me thinking about how I've completely let my emotions control my reactions this past year. I need to be more mindful and think before I act. I will only lead a chaotic life if I keep this up and I don't want that.