Does anyone else...

have a love/hate relationship with their mom? HOw are other borderlines' relationships with their moms? I'm curious.

Happy Christmas!

survived one family party- one more to go!
My sister-in-law had her first baby two days ago, so that's very exciting! I can't believe my brother is going to be a dad! But, he'll be an awesome one, I'm sure!
Stress levels are of course way up, but I'm trying to cope. I think I may be an emotional eater-when things are going bad, I just have at it and don't care what I stuff in my face or the amount. Not good.
Anywho, Happy Holidays, whatever your beliefs or non-beliefs!
Love,
Pigtails

Well...

I made it through both of our family thanksgiving parties. I decided yesterday that I better start taking a half of klonopin in the afternoon to deal with my stress and worry. Hubby has been off of work for vacation time this past week and he starts back tom. We've kinda been making friends with this couple at church, Idk, saying "hi" and catching up and stuff. I'm so terrified of having new relationships. I think I have problems with boundaries. I know I have abandonment and intimacy issues. Ugh.. I hope I get another job soon.

Nieceypoo "fishing"

update

All my gifts are bought and all the baking is done-FINALLY! My moods have been crazy lately, but I'm also having my in-laws and parents over at the same time this evening (aughhh!) Thank God Hubby is the sane one hee hee!

Tami Green, anyone?

I found out about this amazing, speaker, adovate, and person with BPD while surfing youtube. Anyone with BPD or who has a loved one with BPD must check her out!

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday, Brenda!!!

what to do

Well, it's mmy niece's bday party today. Meaning , my huge triggers will be there (my family), so I decided to go early and help set up, then give my neiceypoo her present, then get the heck out of there before anyone else comes. Sounds like a plan to me.
I've also decided to get back into aide subbing. I'm really missing it, even though I can't get my Serouqual nap in, but it'll be really healthy for me.
My husband mentioned last night that he felt hurt when I'd call my mom for advice instead of asking him. I had no idea I was hurting him. I apologized and I think it's ok now.

I'm going to try to

stay away from my tiggers aka my batshit crazy family. I decided to go back down on my Serouaual to 200, but try really hard to work on my coping skills and just kickin it with Hubby and myslef. I don't need the stress of my mom right now or my dad bitchin about my mom or my sister bitchin about my dad or my other sister just bitchin. I can't be on such low dose of Serouqual if I'm gonna be around that. Whew@ I'm kind of scared becasue Hubby will be signing up for unemployment Mon. He works for a company that makes car parts. They are gonna shut down the plant, but don't know how long. That's all for now.