For Valentine's Day...

I saw my psychiatrist! It's a stupid holiday , anyway. so much pressure to have a good one, and good sex-sooo dumb.
Anywho, I had an appointment anyway, but a few days before my monthly , I had been getting paraniod, and I thought bad stuff and I usually get scared that the cops are out to get me, so my mom took me. It wasn't too bad. I have to up my Seroqual on those few days, which makes me soooo tired. I thought I was goin to get fired since I was late today for work, but at least I wasn't paranoid. I know I have tons of grammer mispells here , but I don't care and u probably can't understand , but I am doped up a bit. Hope u had a good day.

what to do

Well, it's mmy niece's bday party today. Meaning , my huge triggers will be there (my family), so I decided to go early and help set up, then give my neiceypoo her present, then get the heck out of there before anyone else comes. Sounds like a plan to me.
I've also decided to get back into aide subbing. I'm really missing it, even though I can't get my Serouqual nap in, but it'll be really healthy for me.
My husband mentioned last night that he felt hurt when I'd call my mom for advice instead of asking him. I had no idea I was hurting him. I apologized and I think it's ok now.

Went crazy

so, I was just fine and dandy decreqasing my Seroqual right? NOpe! Friday night (my fourth day on just 100mg), my OCD came back full throttle, anxiety went through the roof, basically I felt like I was losing my mind.
So, now I'm back to 200 mg-sleepier, but I'm ok. Damn, that was scary.

Must say no

to sleep. Lately, I've been sleeping waayy too much. I thinks it's because the weather is colder and my bed is so damn comfy. I'm gonna make myself get up tom. annd go to the mental health place and hang out. I'm kinda bummed that I'm not getting called to sub. I hope things start picking up soon.

Sleeping

for some reason in the past week, it's beenlike I"ve really been needing a nap. Then I take one, but it still feels like I need more sleep. Maybe it's the increase in Prozac or maybe it's psychological, like I just want to escape the bordedom or soemthing. Hubby and I are going to my niece's b-day party tonight. I'm so excited that we have plans, it doesn't matter what kind of plans - just that we have plans. I could just sleep.