Happy Valentine's Day

My plans? lunch and a movie with hubby, oh, and trying to get out from this hellish borderline rubble I've got myself in (aka :try to be content, get my happy back, think positive, work on hobbies, less stress).

Apologies Accepted?

Well, after much emotional torture, I am NOT pregnant. I want a baby so bad , I can taste it, but I talked to my doctor's nurse today and she said that since I've beeen on birth control for over five years, it may take up to six months until I have a normal cylce and start ovulating. She said to just relax and forget about the ovulation testing and get my mind on other things. After researching the web and taling to everyone else but a professional about getting pregnant, I feel releived to have heard from her and am going to take her advice.
I've been driving myself and loved ones crazy with my borderline symtoms. And thinking I might be pregnant hasn;t helped. I need to get my mindfullness" on and get on with my life. Maybe even apologizze for my behavior.

update

haven't posted for a while. didn;t feel like writing about the times I've been down and uM, I also had a cutting incindent. But, on the upside, I think I amy be pregnant! And this mommy (soon to be) is living helthier than ever (exercisining in the morning, taking vitamins, being "mindful" of emotions) I think that the idea that someone is grwoing inside of you really makes you start to take control of things. My husband and I are very excited and please have us in your prayers.
Also, I"m getting lots of calls about my tutoring gig.

FUNNY

Went crazy

so, I was just fine and dandy decreqasing my Seroqual right? NOpe! Friday night (my fourth day on just 100mg), my OCD came back full throttle, anxiety went through the roof, basically I felt like I was losing my mind.
So, now I'm back to 200 mg-sleepier, but I'm ok. Damn, that was scary.

been

bummed about not getting pregnant, sleeping a lot, low motivation, no one calling for free tutoring. Dont' feel like subbing. My clas starts next week. I feel fat an like a loser.

Raspberry?

I'm a little concerned. Rasberry from the blog: Mindfullness, madness, and me took her blog down. I hope she's okay. Does anyone know anything?