This is my personal journal about my life and how I cope with my mental illness and personality disorder. Where do I find "my happy?" Is it even out there? How do I keep it.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
I just want
to be happy for more than a half hour at a time. I know if that I go into the hospital, The pdoc will say to make a list of things to do or get more work at my job. If it was that easy, well, it's not. I hate having BPD-the chronic emptyness, the rages, the self hate. I feel so alone and bored and pointless. Make this go away.