So fellow borderlines...

are you hyper sensitive, too? any thoughts?

Time

My therapist says I have way too much free time on my hands and becasue of this, I worry and think too much, basically making myself miserable with my bad thoughts. But what can I do, really? We are in a bit of financial trouble (never buy I bloody house ever!) Car parts are breaking, the cat is getting sick. I want to go to the gym, but that costs money. We cannont afford cable. I have the internet, the cat, my pt job, and church. That's all folks! Everything costs money, seems like. It snowed yesterday. Too much time. I had a job interview and am waiting to hear back. It gets dark at 5pm. I asked Hubby if one could literally be bored to death. I guess I should just sit back and wait ((shudder))I am fat I am fat I am fat.

Anti-depressents and...

no libido? Anyone? Grrr.

Trigger from the past

I saw someone who had helped torment me in school. And I think she lives in our neighborhood. And the sadness came back, and the fear, and the anger. I saw her mother today. I don't know what to think or do. I know the past is the past, but the trauma of my childhood is why I have bPd in the first place. Any Help?

Jar of Hearts

Do something.

So, my counselor strongly suggested I do volunteer work while trying to find another pt job. So, Friday I am going to take an elderly woman to a dr. appnt. through an agency here. I think it was interesting that my counselor told me I needed to do something with my time and NOT just working around the house, but she said I had to do something fulfilling like help people. I agreed. This overwhelming feeling of "there is nothing" has been haunting me since summer. Wish me luck.

'Tis Fall!

Tree In Front Yard