Must blog

or I will lose my mind. Talk about stress! Our basement flooded a few days ago and we have been taking up the carpet and carpet pad. To do that, we had to take off the wood panels on one wall, destroying it. PLus, Hubby leaves for work on Saturday for Germany and I just want to die. It's so overwhelming. We've only been at this house for three months and this happens. I cry about it. Then, I get borderline and get all bitchy. This sucks.

Nieceypoo "fishing"

Remora fish and bpd

I was talking to my good friend recently. She was struggling with hearing voices and I was struggling with anxiety at the same time. While hospitalized, they had to pin her down to give her a shot. She laughed and said the fight she put up was " a little borderline." I was like, "ya think." I told her I was struggling with anxiety and said my bpd popped up with it, too, making Hubby's life a living hell. It's like whatever, you are dealing with , bpd is like remora fish, those fish that are on sharks, along for the ride. What do u think?

Feeling better

I think my Serotonin levels are back up (thank God) I feel so much better. I'm less anxious and less worried. Sure, when I took a three hour nap, I had drooled in my sleep, but this med increase is worth it. Ugg!

Med increase and trip to the city

Pdoc has increase Seroqual from 200 to 300. I hope this will help. She can't go any higher on the Pristiq and doesn't want to jack with the klonopin. To release stress, Hubby and I went to St. Louis for the weekend. We went to six Flags, Union Station and the science center. Here's some pics.

I wish

I had gotten a bachelor's degree

I wish

I had a real job.

I wish

I was skinny again.

that's about right

So summer depression sucks, but Hubby is sick, so I am stepping up and taking care of him and working on my friend's bridal shower. and doing laundry, that is until I start bawling again (haha).